Sigh. Today's been a stressful day. So much thinking about the future, about the present, everything. I wonder what's going to happen to everybody. We've all hit that transition stage... The seniors are gone soon, and for us juniors... we're hitting a point where our main focus is going to be purely college [or military. or work. whatever paths we pursue].
And it's frightening... Just thinking about it makes me want to just... withdraw. I want to just curl up, let it all fade away. Wake up one day in the future with everything magically changed.
My ambition is spent. I have no clear goal, no distinct path for me to follow. I'm lost.
i wonder, if i could tell you how many times i have cried.
tears fallen like lead from these eyes, poisoning my water supply yet i drink and drink to replenish myself due to this constant spilling of burning fluid from up high.
i ask myself, and through this hollow shell of my soul i ask you, is it too late to apologize?
let me reiterate this question. is it too late to plead forgiveness for this love-sick crime. for the way that i simply broke this connection like a piece of loose twine is torn from the tattered fabric at your thigh?
by myself ive been jailed and then tried, and i too late realize the consequences of my actions.
i too late realize how at that time i tortured your mind, how i, committed this crime so despicable in my own eyes, that in the fine print of my ruling as the judge of my own life,
i exclaim.
horrible. by my hand you will die.
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