age 18.

this cavern of my mind contains a maze.
a maze in which the walls are etched: sadness and sorrow. grief and sorrow. engulf me.
for through this time, these 18 years of life, ive aimlessly wandered these corridors, frightened.
these floors curve up in the distance, creating this illusion that i am constantly walking uphill.
in 6570 days time, i have finally realized that it's a ball in which i live.
a ball of bars and chains, yet composed of my own memories and thoughts.
in essence, forcing me to reminisce when i longer wish to.
forcing me to my knees at the memory of you.
for these 190 days ive yearned for an escape,
from my solitude.
as i lay on these sandy shores, memories and images run through my mind.
your laugh. your smile. your touch.
i gaze at the sun but in time avert my eyes.
these heavy lids connect, and before i know it ive traveled through space and appear...
before you.
for this fleeting moment my heart leaps, and i smile.
for i realize... even 2400 miles away, i am loved.
i return to my soul not bonded.
but free with a smile.




no matter where life takes us.
love.